I looked at this as a way to really look at life and mortality and decided it was time to get rid of ALL the stuff that wasn’t serving me. I don’t even know how to express all that has happened in the past two years and how this process changed me but here I am two years later — cancer free!
There is a lot I can say I guess. There is a certain irony to this because I have been involved with Boarding for Breast Cancer for so long and then there is the fact that I have been putting on retreats for ten years now for women with cancer. Although it was my passion to help them, I never once tried to identify with these young girls, these moms who were 35 years old with young children. I just wanted to make these retreats powerful for them. I just wanted to put them in a place where they could heal, snowboard, surf, connect with nature and meet new friends. We would educate them on holistic health care, super foods and all of these things… and then come to find out! Oh my God! Was I just preparing myself the past ten years!?
I guess when your path is laid out, it’s laid out.
My whole thing was to get through this process with some grace and to do everything I could with all of my heart and mind. I had made up my mind earlier not to look back and know that even once I beat it I wouldn’t live in fear ever again.
With Chasing Sunshine all I can hope is that it inspires people to know the possibilities out there. The film shows a lot of the different treatments that I went through, from my chemo to stuff like acupuncture, to cold cap therapy. There is lot of integrated medicine that I really am happy to share. In the end, Chasing Sunshine is just a catalyst for me to to start helping other people again.
The teaser for B4BC’s Chasing Sunshine.
For me, healing is about perspective. I would never tell anyone that you have to believe this or that to get better, but only that there are different possibilities out there that we might give credit to. So I also look at this as a test to see if I really believed in what I had said for many years. It’s one thing to think that all of this psychic, mind-body stuff is really cool but when it comes down to it, do you really believe it? I think what I learned is that the most important thing is to believe in yourself, because within you are inherent powers.
I must also give thanks to David, my husband, who went through this with me. He also has to process a lot of things and he’s doing that in his own way. His devotion towards me… I feel so blessed to have him help me through this. Many days when I was weak or upset I just handed myself over to him and he was there, always.
This process reminded me that in order to be a good mom and a good wife and a good friend, that first I have to be a really good Megan and stay in line with my own truth. What’s crazy is that I feel like this has been planned all along. And now I’m living by the seat of my pants every day! I’m here to sit back, enjoy the ride and see where it takes me! It goes beyond cancer. We are all going to face a health crisis at some point regardless of our beliefs. And most importantly, we are all going to die someday, so let’s make the most of our time here and inspire others to do the same.
